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Name: Allie
Interests: Music, purple, kittens, classical music, chai tea frapps, Marlboro Smooths, ramen noodles, rock and roll, text messages, bubble tea, music theory, thrift stores, holidays, Breakdown Records, writing, watching the sun come up, the city, my amazing friends, being a dreamer.
Expertise: my band: www.myspace.com/thelillapucians
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Member Since:
11/26/2008
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| Currently I am packing up everything I own and getting ready to move on friday. I have two days left in the room I grew up in. These walls hold so many memories and it's going to be hard to walk out of the apartment for the last time. I anticipate feeling really shitty. I know change can be good. Maybe this change will be good for me. Maybe it will motivate me to change my life. Start going to class and stop fucking around. Save some money and get ready to grow up for real.
Anyways, to post something positive. I met a very nice boy named Gil. He's 6'5" (drrrrrrreamy!) Who would have thought?
Can't help but feel a little distant though..my heart is sworn to the urgency  LMAO man Aisling Vicky and I are insane. But Ian Molla and The Urgency? Cmon how could we not be mental over them? They're an incredible group of guys who also happen to be in a reaaaaally good band.
Okay. It's a little weird only cause they're not actually famous. They're famous to us. That's all that counts.
THE PLATINUM TRIO'S BACK ON YOU HO'S. | | |
| LILLAPUCIANSSS
We have a NEW SHOW!! Check it out!
http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=192698641112
On Oct 23rd [for those who dont feel like opening the link!] we are playing at McGarry's pub in NYC..hosted by Windows of Opportunity and Rock Ur Heart Out! The proceeds of this show go to two causes:
The Jayden Zapata Foundation - The aim is to raise $15,000 to support the family of Jayden Zapata, a 5 year old boy who at one and half years old was diagnosed with Spastic Cerebral Palsy & Developmental Delay. He is not able to carry the weight of his body on his right side. He receives Botox therapy on his left leg, and physical, occupational, speech and feeding therapy. He has been at a Center base program with United Cerebral Palsy since the age of 2.
The Wellbeing Foundation - The aim is to raise $25,000 to build a well in Kenya. WellBeing is a diverse group of people who seek to make a difference in the world and change the course of history in Kenya by building a solar-powered well. This well will bring forth life-giving water to an entire village of three thousand. This endeavor will help your brothers and sisters in a far away land, and will empower them do the same for many generations to come.
PLEASE spread the word even if you can't make it. This show means a lot to us and to everyone with Rock Ur Heart Out, The Cover Band Thing, and especially Windows Of Opportunity. We would love to see all of you! Again, PLEASE help us promote, it's going to be a great show!
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| Update for Meghannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! | | |
| Tonight, after my 8 hour shift, Aisling and Steph met up with me at Fridays, we had some food, and then we took a spontaneous drive upstate, to Sleepy Hollow. We sat on a bridge and smoked wine black and milds (which are HIGHLY recommended). We talked and relaxed. Laughed a lot. We discussed taking a trip to California for the week or something..and also to Spain over spring break '10- Aisling will be doing a semester abroad next spring. We lied down in the middle of the road. We took silly pictures and just forgot about all of our responsibilities and worries. It was really nice to forget those things for two hours.
But now I'm back at home and those things have greeted me once again like a slap in the face.
I'm opening tomorrow morning. Gotta be out of my house by 9:30-10. Which isn't that bad but really sucks when I will only get to sleep in the next two hours. I wish I was the type of person that would fall asleep by 10 or 11 at night because my life would sort of make sense that way.
As usual I am listening to John Mayer. But pretty soon I will probably play this weeks episode of This American Life and crawl into bed. It's cold in my room (as usual, my apartment complex doesn't like to put the heat on at night).
Tomorrow will be boring. And supposedly rainy. Greaaaat. Like we need more fucking rain here. I'm looking forward to Friday- I'm picking up my darling Victoria and getting sandwiches and snacks and going to Lindsay's house to watch movies and play guitar hero and be lazy all day. And then I'm going to the studio with the Astoria geeks at 6. :) Friday will be good...if only I could just fast forward a day.
Everything is not broken....... | | |
| I'm so tired of being alone, and forcing myself to not feel the way that I truly feel. It's hard to pretend like I don't care about someone like I do. I might be better off without him, but I don't want to be better.
I've been in such a funk for so long now that I can't write anymore. I haven't written a song in over a year. It's at the tip of my tongue and it's just waiting to be put onto paper but I just don't know how to pull it out of me. The words are all there in my head, they're just hiding. It's unbelievably tiring. I want to write so bad. I want to be able to pick up my guitar and just write like I used to be able to do. Now not only do I have physical limitations, I have emotional ones.
If this is supposed to be my passion, then what gives? Music is the only thing that makes me any sort of happy with my fucking life. And it's failing me. Or maybe I just don't know how to pull it out of me. But even so, that's no good.
I want my voice to be heard. I love to sing more than anything and most people that I consider to be some of my good friends hardly know my capabilities. I'm denied the chance to sing in the band. Aisling says that we should only have one singer because it's less complicated to stick to a schtick that way. The Rolling Stones didn't have one singer. Neither did the Beatles, Fleetwood Mac, Blink 182? I mean okay, maybe that last one is a bad example, but still. I want to sing too. That's what I do. I'm a singer. And I'm stuck behind a drumset now. The most I can do is sing harmonies which is okay and all but god damn does nothing for my needs.
I've been listening to nothing but John Mayer for the past week. This man is incredible. What an amazing songwriter. He really knows how to make me feel his songs, like very few newer artists do.
I don't know what I'm going to do, as per usual. How I'm going to make decisions and what decisions I'm going to make. I wish I could just close my eyes and then open them again, making all the bad shit in my life disappear. Or just fix itself. I don't want to fix anything else I'm tired and discouraged! x[ | | |
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